A Bit About Me

Hi there! My name is Shara and I am writing a little bog about my parenting. I was born the first child of a young girl, and was soon followed by many more. Between my two parents there are nine children, with my mom having seven of those. My childhood was pretty crazy, and I longed for a "normal" life. Now, however, I am not sorry as much, because I know that God will use my past to carve out a better future.

As of these reacent times, I gave birth to my first child, Rebecca, when I was seventeen. As a foster child myself, immediatly a case was opened on her, as well, although she stayed in my care. I breastfed and practiced attatchment parenting with her for 17 1/2 months, when due to alot of things I still don't really understand, she was removed from my care and taken across the state. Instead of pulling my head out and getting her back, I was thrown into a deep depression and began to use drugs. I convinced myself that she would be in danger with me, due to my own childhood, and when I saw her and she called her foster parents "Mama" and all that, I decided that it would be wrong of me to take her from another family. I signed my rights to her over under the condition that she stay where she was and be adopted by them.

I have now been clean for 13 months and live everyday with the choice I made to let her go. Maybe it is better for her. But I ache. I have also had a little boy. He is now 10 months old, to his sister's 3 1/2. I have found the Lord and now live to correct my life and overcome my hurts, habits, and hangups that could drag me down and give others the wrong idea about Christ.